Passion

What is Passion?

There are many forms of passion; in my world I see it in two different extremes: the passion to hate and the passion to love. But what happens to the middle of the extreme? I know a lot of people that fall under that category. For me I’d like to think that I fall under the ‘passion to love’ category. But how does one define passion?

In the past, we have read many classic literatures with a lot of themes that cover passion.
Let’s take Romeo and Juliet as an example these two lovers were willing to sacrifice their own lives for the sake of love. How about Beethoven? He had so much passion towards music that he was able to write a whole orchestra piece despite of his hearing disorder!

In my observation I see no evidence that kind of extreme passion anymore. All I see is dead passion waiting to be re-ignited. Not a lot of people are ambitious enough to actually have a burning desire to do something about their lives. Why are we so willing to live a mediocre life when we have so many resources at our disposal?

I only know of one person that actually have such passion, he is near and dear to me and he is battling cancer. His passion to live inspired me to write this article because I want people to know that passion is important to live a life with no regrets.

It saddens me to see that there are kids who take school for granted not knowing that in this day and age – education is important. It’s really hard to get a job considering the economic adversaries we are facing today.

I envy a lot of people for their free time, but its time not well wasted. Some people may argue “I only want to have fun during my youth” but what use is that when your future is not looking good either? I made a mistake of not continuing my education in Nursing, but I don’t necessarily regret it. My passion lies elsewhere and I want to start on that road. A lot of people will tell me that it wouldn’t make me a lot of money, but money is not what I’m after. You see if I can do the thing that I love almost everyday and earn money doing it, then I’m happy. But if I continued doing something where I get paid a lot…but ended up hating every single day of it then what’s the point? I’d only go from one end of the extreme to the other.

Passion to hate Passion to love

What is the key to passion? I can’t answer that because the answer lies in each individual. The answer will vary, as for myself I can honestly say that my family and my passion for art is what drives me each and every day to keep looking forward to tomorrow. Even as I watch my dad lying helpless in bed, I tell myself that tomorrow his pain will be taken away, not by drugs or by modern medicine – but a miracle that will soon occur…maybe not today or tomorrow but only in His time. I’m not going to lie, this illness has affected me in every way possible: financially, physically, and mentally. But these obstacles is not going to stop me from wanting what I want, when I get the chance I will go back to school to get my degree and I will succeed and I will be proud that my parents raised me well enough to have ambition as high as Mt. Everest and the passion as deep as the Marianas Trench.

No offense is implied when I say people with no ambition drains the life out of me. It’s just that my passion to do something with my life burns me to the core that I just want to go and jump out of a 100 story building. It’s a bit of an exaggeration but I mean it when I say I really want to go back to school. Only – life got in my way.

So if you have any passion, ignite it don’t just let it sit idly by inside you, make it burn and see where it takes you.

Blogging on iPod

Wow this is so weird. This is my first time blogging on my iPod its kind of cool. I am getting used to it, I’m typing a little bit faster now hehehe…

This is cool actually but ya when I’m running out of things to say already lol. but I hope I can type a longer blog about my asian blogging haha.

Anyway I haven’t blogged for so long. hmmmm neways I’m done with.

Family Drama. &Something like that

Right. My family is totally messed up. I’m so depressed because of them. They are the root of all things miserable in my life. Why do we need extended family for? I’ve no need for them and obviously they have no need for me either. I’m so sick of it. Sick of all the fights, the drama, the yelling and screaming, snobbing, and especially the insults. whatever, no one reads this stuff anyway.

I’ve been needing someone to lend me their ear. I want to just spill it all out, all my frustrations and all my sadness. But who would listen? Everybody’s got their own cross to bear. I don’t want to feel insecure, but at the same time there’s always that someone in my life that keeps bringing me down. Though it may be unintentional, I’ve come to hate him so much that to this day I have not let the feeling go. How could I bear such a grudge? I’ve held it ever since Friday. The hatred grows each passing moment and its as if its engulfing me because there’s nothing else I could think about. When I’m not preoccupied, I remember the things he said to me…all the insults that pierced me right through. My ego had been crushed and my pride at its all time low. What have I got going for me? I have no one that really wants to listen. Isn’t it normal for a human being to crave for attention? To want to have someone to rely on? It’s as if I’ve lost all that, I’ve got nothing to cling to but at the same time I want to do so many things. All these feelings hold me back. I wish I was cold hearted. I wish I didn’t feel a thing for anyone or anything so that I could get by life swiftly. If I get hurt I won’t feel it. If the sun is shining brightly up in the sky, and the sky is clear I wouldn’t care because I wouldn’t feel a thing. Emotions bring you down does it not?

I’ve stressed about this matter far too long, how come I can’t let it go? What does one do?

I hate him. I dislike my family. He thinks he’s so smart that he can step on people’s feelings without feeling guilty. Just because he’s smart doesn’t mean everyone around him is stupid. I hate him. I use this word with passion. I shouldn’t but in this case I would. Life is short and I’m making use of mine to fully hate. Call me hateful but that’s all I got going for me. I have to move on. I will ignore him and I will regard him as a stranger. I will not consider him a family. We may share the same genes, have the same blood running through our veins, but I will never call you family again. I told you once before that I can hold a grudge. I keep that promise and I will keep this grudge until the day I die.

-Story written by bananadotink

Yes its a story…sad no?

JE and Jerry..

I’ve been reading news around the net about Jerry Yan signing a contract with Johnny’s Entertainment.

It’s kind of a funny rumour don’t you think? I mean he is kind of old and not at all a TEEN idol anymore. I don’t know really if I should be happy or not should the rumour be true.

Let’s just say, Johnny & Associates SHOULD sign Super Junior because I love them to bits and along with the Hottest guys in Japan, it would so be Heaven to watch. That would also widen their fan base if that so happens neh~

Alright. Useless rant over.